Still working on it.

I am doing the best I can at the moment. I plan to get back at it full force after the big move on Nov 2. With less stress should come less worries and less obsessions.

Remember when

update

I am doing a little better diet-wise. I am trying hard to keep out of my head in all those crazy thoughts. I am finding it easier to just do a healthy vegetarian diet and to just try to eat well without counting everything all the time. I am working to increase my activity. Prince Charming still hasn't hidden the scales, so I still have my obsession with those, but the fact that I haven't lost any more weight yet hasn't gotten me completely crazy yet.

issues

I am having more real eating issues than I have been letting on. So much so that Prince Charming is hiding the scales, and some pills from me in order to help me try to get this monkey off my back. I still want to eat healthy and lose weight, but I have to step back from it. I feel like my financial situation is making this eating problem worse for me. No matter how hard I work I am not making the financial thing better. It is a goal I am not reaching, but if I work hard enough, starve enough, take the right things, etc, I can get skinny. it is something that I can control and do. It gives me something to think about when I need to not think about money stuff.

weekly weigh-in

I am down 1.2 lbs. Notsosnowwhite is up 1 lb. Here's to a good week next week!

Ugh

I am so dumb. I was doing it again. In the last three days I have had 850, 923, and 986 calories. I know in my mind this is not enough, but for some reason counting calories puts me in a bad place. Heck counting carbs does it to me too. I keep having less and less and then my stomach goes into spasms. With calories I keep having less and less until I am hungry all the time and just living with it.

Prince Charming tells me to take a few weeks to a month and eat healthy vegetarian and see what happens. It is hard because when I am making my supper in the back of my head, I am still counting. I need to just eat healthy vegetarian foods when I am hungry and stop when I am full. I need to not count anything for a while.

I don't know if I can do this. I haven't felt this way about food in years. I just want to get this weight off as soon as possible.

challenge

This has been a challenging week. I am sick (AGAIN??) and the babies aren't sleeping well. But I am doing the best I can. I will be happy to even break even this week!

Bad week

I am having a bad week this week. My determination isn't wavering, but my body is doing weird things. I can only hope this clears up by weigh-in day, but I have my doubts. Oh well, as I always say, this is a marathon, not a sprint and one week isn't going to get me off-track. I am too determined to let it get me down.

weekly weigh-in

I forgot to post my weigh-in this week again! I am down 3.4 lbs. This was a good week for both of us!

weigh in

I am very proud to say that i am down 3 pounds this week. I worked really hard and it paid off...heres to week two

thoughts

One change I am trying to make is in the way I look at exercise. Right now, it is just one more thing I have to fit into an already over-stuffed schedule. But I think it will make a difference if I think of it as me time. I usually have me time first thing in the morning, but lately the kids and mommy duties have hi-jacked that time too. So if I take Princess Snifflefritz, put her in a stroller and go out for walk with just her, I can enjoy a little quiet time to clear my head and enjoy myself. Now this will only work when the weather is nice enough for a walk, but maybe I can try the same thing with exercise in the house too. Think of it as something I am doing to feel good about myself. This is my goal. I am not there yet, but I think if I can get this into my head, it may help me to include exercise into my weightloss efforts.

10 minutes.... on the treadmill

10 minutes doesnt sound like much..but to me it sounds like a start. It sounds like the beginning of a healthier me. 10 minutes doesnt mean much to alot of people but it means the world to me

Weekly weigh-in

I am down 2.4 lbs this week. I am thrilled with that. That means at this point I am lower than I was when I got pregnant with my first baby and 31 lbs lighter than when I got pregnant with my youngest baby. I am very happy.